We all think alike, sadly. We all fall for the same lines, trick, everything. The same words that once made us smile now make us cringe at being stupid enough to fall for. It's almost a curse, but it seems that all guys are the same lately. Different body, same boy.

We've all been in that situation... you find that guy. The cute one, the sweet one. The one where you just want to lat in their arms under the stars with and count to forever, just listening to his heartbeat knowing you're safe and in love. The one. The one that you think is different than the rest. the one that tells you all the EXACT same things as the last one, but oh... it's differnt, this guy actually means it. The one hat you think that you can change... maybe none of the other girls know him well enough, or just maybe you're special enough to change his ways. Maybe he won't talk to other girls, like the rest of the guys have. but no. he's the sam guy that fucked you over before. Different body, same boy.

I have yet to find one guy to prove me wrong. Sad isn't it? Every guy I have talked to, have used the same lines, moves, and words to make me fall for them. Yet some how I always think, " This one is different this time, he must be. He's nothing like the last one." Wait a few weeks, months perhaps, and it's the same situation. Fucked over and alone again.

I don't trust anyone, because everytime I do, I get hurt. Everytime I open my heart to someone, they break it. I have learned that the best option is to just be alone. No one will change. If there is a good guy out there, I doubt I will ever find him. Because everytime I do, it turns out the same. Different body, same guy.

That was something i posted about a year ago, Honestly I think it's true, except for "If there is a good guy out there, I doubt I will ever find him." I really think I found him. He used to be this guy I was talking about.

If you find a good guy, keep him, you don't need to experince different guys, theres only couple good guys out there. If you love them and leave them, for some one you like then they will leave you for some one they love. The saying is true, from expirince, from little princess.

im getting tired i might finish this later.

   Im having trouble sleeping, like I always do. I have alot on my mind, but I do think alot before I go to bed. Im alone when im at home. Im 16 I pretty much live on my own, I dont have a job or anything yet. All my friends are older then me I understand how everything is. I havent ever had a job before, but im about to have two. Im not sure how, or if I can handle it yet, I just try to look at it as I have to. My friends and my boyfriend live together, hes 18 as lwell. I stay there on the weekend, my mom lives in Michigan, my dad works about 12 hours a day, and goes to play poker almost every night. I love my dad, we understand each other, I dont mind being alone here, I just rather be over at my friends house. I pretty much live there, there everyday, stay the night every weekend. Wish I didnt have school tomorrow, party over there. Its ok though, I much rather be there when AJ is there, and when Jessie and Cody are sleeping because they have work in the morning. Myranda and Jake (Jake doesnt live there hes mine and Myrandas friend.) are taring the house apart, This is AJs house. Everyone just lives with him everything is in his name so if anything gets fucked up, rent is late anything, its on him.

  Since hes gone I tried to tell them not to take the door off to play beer pong, but no one listens, I havent told him but i feel like I should. Tomorrow when I get up? I cant have him coming back seeing everything messed up and rent not payed. Theres really not much I can really do though. I hope Will is looking out for him, and the place, but I dont know. AJ has only been one for a full day, and I already really want him to come home.I can barely take a night without him, a whole two weeks. I know it doesnt sound long at all, but to me it seems like a couple lifetimes. I sleep with one of his jackets every night. When I look back on our memories that we have together, I just think were just like all the movies, alot like the notebook, he notices it too. Im excited to wake up just to text him, hes already asleep right now, so im letting him sleep. He has too be up early so texting him first thing. Im going to take a shower in the morning for the first time in forever, I always take my showers at night, I dont know why. I just want to fall asleep in his arms. I know im jumping subject to subject, im not trying to. Alot of AJ on my mind, but I guess thats normal. Im really attatched to him, I used to write about him all the time, and I havent for a while, so I uess ive had alot to talk about.

   Im ready for the next week to be over, Ill be done with school. Then my best friend for 6 years is coming up from Florida is coming to see me the weekend AJ gets back, which sucks. This is because Nikkis family is pretty much my family and im going with her for a couple days to visit them. Also that weekend my really good friend Katie is coming back from Cali for school. This summer is going to be really fun. I just hope it doesnt seemed that long that AJ is gone. I hope he comes back to visit sometime soon hes only a hour away, not too bad right? If I could drive I would Drive out there every day to visit him then drive back home for school. I only go to school twice a week, because im homeschooled, but i have to be home everynight, except weekends.  Well my planned worked I was going to write till I was tired or till something hurt. Now My shoulders hurt and im tired, so ill leave it to that. Goodnight and Sweetdreams to Everyone.